Thursday, November 08, 2007

While it's been great

And it really has been in so many ways, I'm still me; which means that I have to battle my tendency to isolate, to not reach out, to not engage with others. Last week between roughly Monday to Saturday I spoke to no one on the phone. I went to the North Dayton Knit Night and did talk some but it was very surface because I had just met these folks so it wasn't like I was going to spill my guts about things.

That was the extent of it for conversation with two-legged people besides TGF. This past Saturday Jeriann called me because she knew I had some shitty things happen (no you didn't miss something, I haven't posted about them) so she wanted to check in.

Poor Jer. I just let loose a torrent of stuff. It was clear that I need to talk to other people besides TGF and the animals. So this week I went to the ND Knit Night, got together with DaintyKitty. Yesterday my good friend Supee called. By chance Jer and Cody stopped by early today. Today I spoke with both my mother and my father. So this week is a definite improvement but clearly it's something I need to work on in the future. Again. Still. Always.


louisiana swamp rat said...

You know, I almost picked up the phone and called you last week when you sent out your contact info, because I really needed to talk to someone, but I didn't, because I thought you might think it weird that an internet friend called out of the blue...I wish I'd called. Sounds like you needed to talk as much as I did. Sorry...

Barbara said...

sometimes I have to force myself to go and do social things with people other than my family.

I never want to, but usually end up having a good time.

I understand that about myself and push to do it - knowing that if I isolate within the comfy cocoon of my family - I will be bat sh!t crazy before too long.

Good to see that you know that you have to push yourself too.