It's true, some days I am just fine, others rather happy - like yesterday. Then today, somehow just blah, bordering on sad.
Actually it still amazes me how many emotions I can experience in a day. Maybe when one pays attention, stays present it's easier to notice these thing. Certainly that is a nice, more "evolved" take on my moods. The other option is that I am not very stable, which given various things is a fear that I still harbor. Crazy sort of runs in my family and every once in a while, I wonder if I might succumb. Honestly I wasn't concerned with that today, but in reflecting on the day, and recent times, I realize that it still is underneath, buried, a fear that sometimes flashes itself in the sunlight.
I'm sure tomorrow will be just fine, the little fuzzy buster of calm will crawl back into the corner.
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